Layoffs: An Adventure Begins

Osho Zen Tarot Card - The 8 of Water (Letting Go)
I pulled this card just before going to work on Thursday. The Universe apparently has a sense of humor.

 

Last Thursday, I was laid off after working for the same company for six years, eight months and two days.  There was certainly a part of me that felt panicked, worried and sad.  I have friends there who I will no longer see frequently.  It’s been comfortable and “safe” there.  It was the first company I’d ever worked for as a “permanent” employee.  How could I not be feeling such things?  But there was another part of me that felt relieved and–dare I say it?–happy.  Maybe that makes me odd.  But it felt like a cycle in my life–a long and difficult cycle–had come to an end.  And I was glad to be done.

To avoid unnecessary exposition about this, I’ll just cut to the bottom line: I’m free!  To do whatever I want.  Even if it’s just for a little while.  How could I not be happy about that?  The Company was a great place to work, and I look forward to keeping in touch with the friends I made there.  But for me, this is less the closing of a door, and more the freeing of a bird from a comfortable–but ultimately confining–cage.

The question, of course, is what to do now.  Logic says that I should be looking for a job as a web producer–because that’s a job that both pays well, and is my most recent position within The Company.  I do enjoy coding–and I seem to have a knack for picking up web languages.  But it’s not soul-feeding work, and that’s really what I’m looking for, Millennial that I am.  However, I realize that finding a passion-based job may not be feasible.  And I’m okay with that.  I can deal with having a day job, if I need to go that way.  But I’d like to test my creative abilities first.  So, I’m taking a break.  I’ve got the time and the money–so why not?  For the next several weeks, I’m going to be driving around North America to visit family, friends, and places of interest–and posting about it.  Most of my entries will be travelogues, but there will almost certainly be other things mixed in.  Hopefully, dear reader, you will find these posts entertaining.  It should be an interesting ride.

Author’s note: I wrote this post on 8/21/2013, but for the sake of clarity I’m backdating the post to the 13th.  I also made some extensive revisions to the post on 8/22/2013.

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